Wednesday, December 29, 2010

谢谢,我的爸爸

这一篇是写给我爸爸的

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谢谢你这些年来辛苦工作为家里带来补贴。虽然你不多话,从来没有对工作有怨言,但我知道你是不开心的。

我爸爸是一位教车员,大部分的工作时间都在汽车里驾车。犹豫长时间暴晒在太阳地下,所以皮肤都晒的又黑又干燥。可是穿短裤的他大腿却白白的,明显的肤色差别。

一直以来你在家都不多话,你比较严肃,我和姐姐都不敢跟你交谈。我知道你是很寂寞和孤独的。唯一的娱乐就是在家看电视和跟朋友到外面去喝酒聊天。朋友应该是你唯一诉苦的对象吧? 还是你从来都不诉苦呢?

从小你就喜欢租VCD给我们一家坐在客厅看新戏,那是我小时每天最期待的事情。忘了几时开始,就没租戏看了,应该是没钱吧。以前你会带我们一家4口去吃早餐~可是这情景不在,好久好久我们4口都没一起同桌吃饭了。

几年前,家里发生一些事情,父母吵了一场大架。2005年,还记得姐姐那时要考SPM,而我就要考PMR。不知哪来的传言,加上爸爸喝醉酒回家乱说话,结果惹怒了妈妈搞的出菜刀打架,差一点搞出人命。那是我很不懂事,什么也没说什么也没做,在一旁看,只有姐姐去喝止。虽然说这不是第一次吵架,但自从那天起,爸妈就不交谈,甚至分开睡,不在一起吃东西。妈妈不再原谅你,你的喝酒量也有增无减,心地话只有在喝醉酒的情况下才会说出来。很多次你喝醉后回到家跟妈妈说"对不起",妈妈哭笑不得,哭是因为还很恨你,笑是因为你醉酒贴着妈妈来哄她。你也曾经喝醉酒后,叫我不要交男朋友,做工以后才交男朋友。呵呵~当然,那时的我就读女校,哪来男生呢? 可是上了大学以后就另类话题啦。

还记得当我要上大学时,好选不选,选了Actuarial Science 这一科在 UTAR ,需要一笔钱给学费。学费很贵,第一学期就要RM5000++。你知道了就帮我跟姑妈借钱,那时我才知道原来我爸的积储所剩无几。头一个星期,你每天载我去PJ上课放学。有一次,你的车水滚啊! 路途中停了好几次,自己推掉了学车的学生,你都载我去学院,然后自己想办法搞定你的车。我好感动~接下来我找到了宿舍就搬进去住了一年。你千叮万嘱一定要好好读书,学费很贵的。我辜负了你~

可是姐姐读书从来没有给爸妈添麻烦,她选了Mechanical Engineering 在 KTAR。学院在家附近,来回有巴士。学费都不需要付,因为有100%奖学金。姐姐的成绩一向来都很好,是她那科的 Top Student ,也参加过比赛得奖。她从来都不是家里的负担。。。现在你每天都载姐姐上班放工,真的辛苦你了。

早前,我跟你学架车,学到中途就半途而废,借口是很忙很多考试。我从2007年开始考Undang,2008年就学驾车,同时2008年5月进大学。L牌拿到后到L牌过期,补钱后再过期。最后2010从新考Undang,然后又过期。前前后后拖了3年,花了你多少钱我不晓得,你也没什么怪我。2010年12月28日是我考车牌的日期。
26日:
于是你就再教我驾车,那天你骂我"为什么教了那么多次都不会? ","你看,最差就是你","回家哪条路都不懂","你不会看路牌啊?"。我忍不住在你面前哭了,一旦眼泪流出来就停不了。从开始到结束,我大概哭了1个小时30分钟。一边哭一边学车,怕被别人看见,一直在擦眼泪。回到家还躲在厕所哭,"我真的很笨吗?"。后来我问我的朋友她们有没有被骂过,她们都说不是骂,只是你教来教去都学不会,语气像在骂。这时我在想,其实我爸不是很喜欢这个工作吧? 因为你几乎对每个人都说过"为什么教了那么多次都不会? "
27日:
好不想见到你,怕你再骂我,我又会哭。还好那天你没有骂我,还让我驾车去姐姐工作的工厂接她放工。当然,回的时候是姐姐驾啦。
28日:
好幸运的,我上山PASS了,结下来的都不是问题啦。那天终于考到了P牌。那时我很感谢爸爸一直教我,虽然语气是重了点,但也是为我好。

之前我会为了考车的事情主动跟你说话,现在就没话题了。之前你买了一部PLASMA TV 按在客厅,为了可以让我们一起看大点银幕的电视。可是自从我们有了电脑和上网器,就很少看电视了。你会很失望吧? 只剩下你一个人看电视。

看见你抽屉里一大包药物,觉得很心疼。由于过度吸烟喝酒,心脏出了状况。需要长期服用metoprolol tartrate.
Metoprolol is a selective receptor blocker used in treatment of several diseases of the cardiovascular system, especially hypertension.
Metoprolol Tartrate-Hypertension: One of several preferred initial therapies in hypertensive patients with ischemic heart disease, heart failure, or diabetes mellitus.

我希望我爸可以健康,长命百岁。可以的话,少吸烟吧~喝酒我不阻止你,因为那是你的娱乐,但吸烟真的没有好处。我想可以赶快出来工作,让爸妈留在家休息,培养回你们的感情,要你们不在为金钱烦恼。我要买一间房子,要有按摩椅摆在家里,舒服的大床,大鱼池给爸爸养鱼,安装大电视。。。很多很多。。。

你不需要怀疑,写这篇文章时我都在流泪。我没有勇气跟爸爸说我爱你,没有勇气拥抱爸爸,没有勇气约爸爸吃饭。。。请原谅我~

怀念爸爸的笑容

Friday, December 24, 2010

It's Christmas Eve



It's Christmas Eve tonight.
I have no plan for tonight actually...
not even plan to visit my dear's house and celebrate with him...
then i regret for being lonely at home and facing the laptop all the day...

Haha...
just a few second before this, my dear asking me to visit him...
hmm~ y not he visit me but the opposite way?
how stupid am i? lol~
never mind lo, just wishing my dear have a nice day...
here i come!

And wishing you Merry Christmas too~
Have a nice day~


Merry Christmas
=)

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

TODAY IS MY LAST PAPER!!!

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FINAL EXAM - THE LAST PAPER
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yuhoo~ keep thinking...

after today....
after my last paper test...
after 4pm...

IM FREE!!!
I CAN PLAY BUFFET WAR EVERYDAY!!!
I CAN SLEEP LATE LATE EVERYDAY!!!
I CAN GO MY DEAR'S HOUSE FOR "TRIP"!!!
I CAN LEARN DRIVING!!!
I CAN TAKE DRIVING TEST!!!
I CAN DO MY NAILS!!!
I CAN SHOPPING!!!
I CAN GO SALOON TO CUT MY HAIR!!!
I CAN DO MANY MANY THING!!!
WAAAAAAA~~~

how excited i am...
by the way,
wish me good luck for the sociological paper test later~

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Don't wish me this!

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But wish me this!

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=)
+u

Monday, December 20, 2010

SOCIOLOGY

Sociology...
Social integration...
Social institution...
Social interaction...
Social groups...
Social inequality...
Social stratification...
Social mobility...
Social force...
Socialization... Confuse? Now u know how suffer i am...

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Methodology/Research Method
purpose:
1. check presumed validity of existing theories
2. produce information
3. develop new theories explain how our lives are influenced by various social forces.
method:
survey, observation, experiment, analysis of existing data.

Survey:
1. ask Q abt opinion, beliefs or behaviors
2. method: f-to-f, telephone interveiw or paper-pencil format.
A)Sampling: random/systematic/stratified sampling.
B)Questionnaires & interviews: self-administered questionnaires(multiple choice or true-false)/personal(structured or unstructured interviews)/telephone interviews.

Observation:
1. rely on ourselves to go where the action is and to watch what is happening.
2. detached/participant observation.

Ethnography:
1. an analysis of ppl's lives in their own perspectives.
2. focus more on meaning(what subject think/believe) than activities(what subject do/how they behave).

Analysis of existing data:
1. impossible to gather new info or conduct interview/observation because the ppl we want to study are long dead.
2. secondary analysis-search for new knowledge in the data collected earlier by another researcher.

research ethics:
1. ensure welfare of participants
2. be honest and disclose all details of their research
3. shd not do research that could be harmful to the society.

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Society
1. is a collection of interacting individuals who share the same way of live and living in the same territory.
2. in a society, members can be from a different ethnic group.
3. a higly complex society may have many diverse characteristics & conflicts because of the society's foundation.

Statuses:
1. the position in the society
2. ppl behave according to their statuses
3. sometimes being ranked
4. we have so many statuses, mainly ascribed & achieved status
A) Ascribed status:
>> a status that one has no control over
>> given to us independently on what we do
>> it based on race, sex, and age.
B) Achieved status:
>> a status that is attained through an individual's own actions
5. despite our many statuses, we are usually influenced by only one status when we interact with others.
A) Master status: dominates a relationships
B) Subordinate status: does not dominate

Roles:
1. every status has their roles
2. role is a set of expectations of what individual should do in accordance with a particular status that they hold.
A) Role Set: an array of roles is attached to one particular role
B) Role performance: how a person actually carries out the role
C) Prescribed role: expectation held in society regarding how an individual with a particular status should behave
D) Role conflict: expected to play 2 conflicting roles of our 2 different status at the same time.
E) Role strain: stress caused by the demand from the role of a single status.

Social Aggregate:
a collection of ppl in one place but dint interact with each another.

Social group:
a collection of ppl who interact with one another and have certain feeling of unity.
A) Primary group:
>> a group of members interact informally, relate to each other as a whole person, and enjoy their relationship, lasting for years.
B) Secondary group:
>> a group of members interact formally, relate to each other as a player of particular roles, expect to profits from each other
>> no emotional ties, the communication is bound by formalities
>> self-centered goal, short term relationship

Social institution:
a set of widely shared beliefs, norms and procedures necessary for meeting the basic needs of society.

Society Sosiocultural Revolution:
1. a process of changing from a simple to complex society.
2. societies can be classified into categories based on the technologies used to produce food.
3. 1st phrase: hunting & gathering, pastoral, horticultural, agricultural
2nd phrase: industrial, information
A) Hunting & gathering:
>> oldest and most egalitarian society in the world
>> a human group depending on hunting & gathering for its survival which usually consists of 25-40ppl
>> nomadic: moving from one place to another as the food supply of the area are given out
>> use simple tools: spears & hand
>> no leader & most decisions are arrived at through discussion
>> influenced spiritual forces and help to obtain food
>> division of labor: Men(hunting wild animal) & women and children (gathering)
B)Pastoral societies:
>> a society based on pasturing the animals
>> domesticate and herd the animal as their primary source of food
>> nomadic: constantly on the move, looking for fresh grazing grounds for their herds
C)Horticultural societies:
>> a society based on cultivating plants by the use of hand tools
>> not nomadic/ permanent settlement: tropical forest in Africa, Asia, Australia
>> labor division: Men (clear forest) & women (cultivating)
>> religion: believe in god & perform religious ritual (to appease the spirit of their dead ancestors)
>> Warriors hold power and prestige
D)Agricultural societies:
>> a society based on large-scale agriculture
>> farmers cultivate a land continuously and intensively
>> some give up farming and become tailors/shoemakers- help city emerge
>> society is headed by a dictator with power- believe leader has divine power
>> hierarchy
E)Industrial societies:
>> a society based on harnessing of machine powered by fuels
>> steam engine was 1st used to run machinery (earlier machine-use wind and water mills depend on human and animals power)
>> invention of automobile, telephone, radio, movies, jet airline- have affected our life significantly
F)Information /post industrial societies:
>> society based on information, services, high technology rather than on raw materials and manufacturing
>> produce food so efficiently that high technology & service dominate the society

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Culture
1. a designed for living
2. a complex whole of consisting objects, values, & other characteristics that ppl acquire as member of society
3. Material society: material objects that distinguish a group of ppl
Non-material society: a group's ways of thinking and doing
A)Material society:
>> object reflect the nature of society in which they were made
B)Non-material society:
>> abstract entities that influence ppl include:
>>(i)knowlegde & belief : objective & subjective idea/unverifiable
>>(ii)norms & values : social rule specify how ppl shd behave(folkways & mores) & socially shared ideas what is good, desirable or important.
>>(iii)symbols & language : a word, gesture, music or anything that stand for some other thing, eg: language.

Functionalist perspective: culture meets human needs
1. culture serves basic need(food and shelter) & higher need(psychological security, social harmony, spiritual fulfillment)
2. central function: ensure social order & stability
3. without culture, human society cnt survive

Conflict perspective: culture supports social inequality
1. 1st: culture reflect the interest of rich & powerful in society
2. 2nd:
>> protect status quo from alienating effects of social and economic oppression/ cruel exercise of power
>> believe that powerful deserve their riches & privileges because of their great intelligence and hard work
>> the powerless blame themselves for being poor and join the powerful in supporting status quo of social inequality

Symbolic perspective: culture reflects shared understanding
1. portray human as being free
2. culture is a shared understanding that people use to coordinate their activities. therefore, human as being free to create/change culture.
3. culture is a:
(i)guide to social interaction:
>> unable us to think & behave without have to question the meaning of every thought & behavior
>> has not been a perfect/useful guide because social environment changes continuously
>> its fixed & inherited from the past
(ii)product of interaction:
>> it changing, continuously created by ppl today

Ethnocentrism VS Cultural Relativism
(A)Ethnocentrism: attitude that one's own cultural is superior to those of other ppl
(B)Cultural Relativism: belief that cultural must be understood on its own word.

[hopes cultural dint include socialization]
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Sex & Gender with Family Institution
Gender Roles:
1. the pattern of attitude & behaviour that a society expects of its member because they are female/male
2. gender roles based on:
A) stereotypes : abt how men & women behave
>>women:homemaker, take care of family
>>men:work outside, provide food for family
B)discrimination : abt how men & women shd behave
>>women: shy, passive, weak, emotional, cry easily, sexually passive, dependent
>>men: ambitious, aggressive, strong, control emotions, sexually experienced

Gender socialization:
we are born to be female/male but we learn to become women/men

Socialization Agent-The Family:
1. influenced by parents, develop a sexual identity & learn gender roles
2. (i)at birth:
>> Girls: (pink color, handle more gently, given dolls)
>> Boys: (blue color, given action figures)
(ii)conversation:
>> thought to differentiate he/his & she/her
>> use more words abt feeling/emotions to girls
>> girls emphasize agreement & boys use more threatening and dominating languages
3. G: ladylike, polite, gentle, express emotion freely
B: avoid being sissies, dont cry, maintain macho image, exploitative attitude, assertive

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Social institution-FAMILY
Family type:
A)Family orientation: the family in which one grows up, made up of oneself, one's parents & siblings
B)Family procreation: established through marriage, consisting of oneself, one's spouse & children

Family Composition:
A)Nuclear family:
>> consisting of 2parents & their unmarried children
>> also called conjugal family because its member are related by virtue of the marriage btw parents
B)Extended family:
>> consisting of 2parents, their unmarried children, & other relatives
>> also called consanguine family because their blood tie among relatives is considered more important than the marital bond

Mate Selection:
A)arrangement marriage: partners are selected by the couple's parents is very common
B)exogamy: the act of marrying someone from outside one's group such as clan, tribe, village
C)endogamy: the act of marrying someone from within one's own group
D)monogamy: marriage of 1 man & 1 women
E)polygamy: marriage of one person to 2/more ppl of the opposite sex
F)polyandry: marriage of 1women to 2/more men
G)polygyny: marriage of 1men to 2/more women
H)serial monogamy: marriage of 1person to 2/more ppl but only one at a time

Residence:
A)Neolocal residence: a home where the married couple live by themselves, away from both husband's & wife's families
B)Patrilocal residence: a home where the married couple live with the husband's family
C)Matrilocal residence: a home where the married couple live with the wife's family

Authority:
A)Patriarchal family: dominant figure is the eldest male
B)Matriarchal family: dominant figure is the eldest female
C)Egalitariat family: authority is equally distributed btw husband &wife

Functionalist perspectives: Family function
(i)sexual regulation:
>> impose some control on who may have sex with whom
>> premarital sex to determine whether a girl is fertile & to prepare adolescents for marriage
>> extramarital sex under condition that do not disturb family stability (eg: offer wives to overnight guests as a gestures of hostility)
(ii)reproduction:
>> produce children to replace the older adults who die
>> traditional societies, children considered precious
>> modern societies, children rewarded with tax deductions
(iii)emotional security:
>> children shape personalities & create hard-to-break patterns from family
>> need comfort & reassurance
(iv)socialization:
>> transmits its values to the new generation
(v)economic cooperation:
>> children need physical care: food, clothing, shelter
>> family members cooperate as economic unit, working to earn income/ doing household chores to minimize expenditures

Conflict perspectives: Violence & Exploitation
(i)violence:
>> family is the most violence institution
>> anger, physical punishment, spouse slapping e/other
>> few group in society empowered by law/tradition to hit its members
>> it is legal to spank a children as a form of punishment
>> many husband who strike their wives are not arrested/prosecuted/imprisoned
(ii)exploitation:
>> family is a mechanism for men's exploitation of women
>> men are paid for their work outside the home meanwhile women are not paid for their work inside the home
>> if women are paid for her services as a mother & homemaker, she would earn more than most the men do
>> by devaluing women's housework, family serve the interest for male exploitation
>> even both working, wive generally do most of the housework

Conflict perspective: Interaction & happiness
1. focus on immediate issues, such as how the interaction btw husband & wife can bring marital happiness/unhappiness
2. types of interaction toward marital happiness:
(i)positive interaction: act of thoughtful friendliness such as touching, smiling, & paying compliments
(ii)negative interaction: act of thoughtless nastiness such as ignoring, criticizing, & calling name

Alternatives lifestyle:
(i)staying single: reason for the increase in committed single-hood:
>> social pressure to get married has declined
>> opportunity for single to have a good life has expanded
(ii)living together:
>> couple live together without have any marriage ceremony
>> cohabitation has spread through among college student & young working adults
>> most cohabitants live like marriage couple & intend to marry eventually
(iii)gay & lesbian marriage:
>> has been legalized in Canada, Belgium, Netherlands
>> have same legal protections & financial benefits as heterosexual couples
>> have children - from earlier heterosexual relationship, adopted / born through artificial insemination
>> tend to have an egalitarian relationship- have same gender roles

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Now left with:
Social interaction
Group & Organization

i wish to cont, but its late now... going to campus! good luck for me!
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Social social social...society society society...


Saturday, December 18, 2010

失望的角落只有我

想念你的心 从未休息过
期待你的踪影 从未出现过

今天一直在期待。。。期待你站在我家门口
你答应到我家。。。陪我一起温习
督促我读书。。。不让我把时间花在不应该花的地方
天使也在为我着急。。。怎么还没把它读完
看见身边的人都轻松自在
怎么只有我独自温习
你呢?不来了么?

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曾经想要打给你
从你语气得知你很忙
不想被打扰
于是。。。我在手机上写了备忘录放在荧幕里

"WARNING
不准MISS老公
不准CALL老公
读书"

多次的冲动几乎被荧幕上的小NOTE给喝止了
总算成功没去打扰你
想着
再多几小时后。。。你就到了
几小时后。。。再多几分钟就到了
几分钟后。。。再多一下就到了
一下后。。。塞车吧
可能半夜车辆比较少才来吧
可能。。。
可能。。。吧

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可惜。。。老天爷爷不让你来啊
就在今天
你爸出车祸了,相信他没大碍吧
只是他占且需要你的"小蓝"来载家人上下班
我明白
我体谅
我不生气
我不闹情绪
我不怪任何人
我不。。。不哭

这是命运。。。它不让你见我
或许
它只是代替你拒绝我
你说你有你的事去办
我知道的
我明白的
我没事的
真的没什么
我可以自己读书
我可以记得喝水
只要把水瓶摆在桌上。。。我就记得了
你可以到。。。"漫画展"去
我知道。。。你想去

我只是。。。有点失望
虽然已经有预感你来不了。。。却很坚信这次会不一样
抱着很大的希望。。。却获得了很大的失望
我还在希望。。。希望我能够学会不再抱着希望
也希望你爸没事~


=|
失望的角落只有我

Monday, December 13, 2010

你什么都不知道

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在你眼里,我有多重要我不知道
在你眼里,我有多好我不知道


在我眼里,你很重要
在我眼里,你很好。。。吗?

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喜欢你的贴心
喜欢你的幽默
喜欢你的笑脸
喜欢你的气味
喜欢你扮小猫
喜欢你装可爱
喜欢你在我身边

习惯了你在我身边,在你家逗留了一个星期
习惯了你在我身边,无时无刻提醒我多喝水
习惯了。。你的声音,你的笑声,你的笑容

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不习惯回到自己的家
不习惯没有你的日子
不习惯早上起床看不见你熟睡的模样
不习惯早餐没有和你一起吃
不习惯没有你拿白开水给我喝
不习惯没有你的拥抱
好多的不习惯

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今天一早起床,我就有种说不出的想念
很想听见你的声音
很想见到你
当我收到了你的早安信息
便迫不及待地拨电话给你
好让我听见你的声音

电话那头传来你的声音
突然觉得能够听见你的声音很幸福~很幸福~
从你的声音
可听见你也聊得蛮开心
我也知道你在尽你所能要劝我读书
真的很开心你还关心我

或许你不知道
你已成为我的精神寄托

当你说要挂机时
有种落空的感觉涌入心头
我很努力的想话题
为了让你能够陪我聊多一会
虽然我知道这通话早晚都得结束

你不知道
挂机前,我眼角已有泪光
挂机后,更泪流满面
听不见你的声音
听见的只有
哭泣声

"原来我从未习惯 你已不在我身旁"

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我想
我的病情开始发作了
因为
接下来做了好多乌龙的事

1。。。。。。。。。。忘了吃正餐
2。。。忘了喝水(这几天都发生过)
3。 洗澡时,搽了2次洗发水在头上
当发现时,想着想着
渐渐地眼眶被眼泪把视线弄模糊了。
眼泪也不听话就流了下来。
我哭过,谁会知道? 你什么都不知道。

记得我们刚在一起时
你答应我说
"老婆,我们以后最多只能一天不见面"
虽然我知道
那只是在哄我的甜言蜜语
可是
我好希望那时真的
"老公,可以么"

我好恨我自己那么没用
那么弱
难道双鱼座的女生
真的除了爱情
就没有别的生存价值了吗?

........................

最近有段新闻轰动全马,甚至国外
ALVISS KONG 江世丰
因失恋,留言面子书后轻生

许多人给予评论
可惜我们不是他,根本不了解他的感受
因为在他的世界里
只有爱情
如果爱情能够理智,那就不是爱情
或许他的选择是错的
但在他的角度
那是对的选择
也或许是唯一的选择

或许
哪天我失恋了
我会想起他
希望他来世可以活快乐

......................

刚刚接到了老公的电话
好开心
听见你的声音时
我禁不住又流下眼泪
开心得说不出话来

你像是听见了我的心声
向我提出要把我带回"家"
我毫不犹豫
答应了! 我答应了!
即使我父母再不喜欢我打扰你家
即使你父母再不喜欢我寄宿你家
即使你再不喜欢我黏你
即使我再不喜欢饿肚子
我也不愿离开你身边一步
谢谢你
你终于知道了
我真的好想你

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T_T
寂寞

Saturday, December 11, 2010

It's Christmas Time

Oh, Jingle Bells~ Jingle Bells~
Jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride
In a one horse open sleigh~ Yeah!

(Miyo & Kar mun)

(Eunice & Miyo )

I went to Sg.Wang and Pavillion to shop before my final exam with my friends.
Miyo, Kar Mun & I have taken few photos in Pavillion....
Then we met another 3 friends: Jia Hui, Wai Cheng & Chor Yin to go for lunch at Oishi (sushi restaurant)

It's really oishi~~~ haha~
my ebi fry set

I shopped this Voir bag, and my new shoes.
happy!

Waiting for the Christmas to come!
25Dec 2010
Before that, study hard to prepare for final exam on 21 Dec 2010.

o(^-^)o
Gambateh!!!

Friday, November 26, 2010

Bored

Recently have been searching for part time job, so that i can earn some extra pocket money for shopping, saving, and travelling. But so far, non of them reply my email (i have sent my resume, profile to few part time agent). Again, i end up with nothing to do but 24 hrs sit in front of the computer facebooking and gaming. Sometimes i can still hear the voice of my mum who always blame me do nothing at home.

I am bored of this kind of life. Thinking where to shift. Thinking what to do alone with nobody blaming on me. Thinking where to shop. However, at the same time thinking how to save money. Arrggh~~~ Somebody make my life more interesting please... At least make me busy!

z.z
bored

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

My dear big day >> 16 sept

15 september 2010

It will be 12am soon after this. It is my dear's 21 birthday 16 September 2010. His birthday always fall on the final exam period, hahaha... pity my dear~ And i will always celebrate with him no matter in what session we are in, because i want to be the one who spend the time with him.

But this year celebration will be different with the pass two years. This year i will join his family to celebrate with his 21 birthday, it will be on tomorrow. And this is why, i was planning not to celebrate with him at 12am since we are going to celebrate tomorrow. I WAS PLANNING. Yet, my dear says want to have dinner with me and he is willing to drive me (i admit that another reason i refuse to celebrate at 12am is i am lazy to travel by my own-PUTRA+STAR LRT).

My love to him is getting stronger day by day eventhough we have been together for two years. And i can feel the same thing to him, from the ways he treats me, the ways he hugs me, the ways he kisses me, the ways he looks at me... We are in love...

However, i am facing some problems at this moment:
1. I have not take a bath ready for the dinner.
2. I have not buy a present to my dear as a gift.
3. I have not prepare for my final.

to be continue....
in love
=3=



16 september 2010

Finally, it nearly reach 12am... Dong dong dong~ Where were we at that time? Oh ya, at Look Out Point having our romantic dinner >> should be supper accually. It was so crowded yet we unable to have a strategic table to look at the night view, lights in the city, the stars. Fortunate is, it was in a good whether. =)

Just at 12am, fireworks lit up the sky making the night memorable to everyone. Of course, it wasn't my contribution, but to commemorate Malaysia Day (the latest additon in the country's string of national celebration, 16 sept 2010.) However, holiday is the only priority to us. ^^

^^
fireworks


Coming to the celebration with his family, the real celebration at 10pm++. Present are his father, mother, grandmother, sister, and an auntie with her daughter. We present our birthday cake after having dinner at 11pm. Black Forest for at least 3kg from Secret Resepi (since my dear only support Secret Resepi's cakes) with 10 special candles+1 big candles+1 small candle =21 years old.

Once we present the birthday cake, it becomes the focus of surrounding customers of the restaurant. At here, i would like to apologize to my dear, that i dint sing a birthday song to you. And i would like to offset by singing the birthday song to you here...^^

Hapi birthday to you~
Hapi birthday to you~
Hapi birthday to lao gong~
Hapi birthday to you~

I hope you will like it, muackss *3. Next, the special effect of the 10 special candles come here >> it will be automatically lighted up even though it was blew off. It was totally funny at that moment, what you can hear was the laughing from everyone. This is the surprise we gave him to a 21years old guy who always acts cute, makes laugh, talk nonsence... or can say is the payment by nemesis... The celebration ended up with cutting of the birthday cake by the birthday boy, disrtibution of cakes. Whereas the remaining cake becomes the dessert after lunch or dinner for the next few days...haha~ yummy!

=D
haha

Thursday, August 5, 2010

当我刚才在唱歌可以吗?

今天是我第二次学车,gear 4 终于用上场了。恩,今天也驾得不错,同样的没有死火噢。还真的蛮有天份的嘛~你敢做我的乘客吗?哈哈。。。曾经,我是纤纤的第一个乘客噢。很开心,也很相信纤纤的驾车技术。希望,纤纤也可以做我的第一个乘客^^

过不久,收到一封信息,内容是这样的"Watashi wa no small buta wa doko desu ka"。需要翻译吗?(假如你看不懂,应该是因为那个"small" 字吧?不要怀疑,不是你没学过的日文,而是它真的是英文。)意思是:"我的小猪在哪里?" 这就是我的他发给我的信息。收到这种信息,总是会笑出来,心里却是甜甜的,觉得怎么我的他那么讨人爱。。。就这样聊聊着,我们就决定看那部想看已久的 Inception。这次终于可以买到戏票了 Couple Seats,心满意足的观赏这部影片。他今天也很乖,打篮球机不超过3次。总算过个一个不错的傍晚~

然而,在决定要一起享用晚餐时,因为意见不和,加上我的糊涂,我们吵了一餐。每一次吵架我都会哭,因为总会想起不开心的事,往事,统统伤心的回忆就会堵着脑袋。当我说我们不合时,其实心里还是很在乎你。因为在意你的每一句话,你的语气。。。假如彼此的心是近的,说话自然小声。当你说话语气很重时,代表你的心离我的心好远。。。好远。。。

我们就这样而饱了,所以就各自回家。不过,应该没事吧~你就当我刚才在唱歌可以吗?可能加一些舞蹈,Rap或什么的。。。 好么?
^o^
唱歌

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Happy moment

Well, since he is especting me to have a post talking about the movies that we watched these 2 days, that is why I am writing this post.

We watched an action with humour movie yesterday named The Sorcerer's Apprentice. It was very nice and he likes it so much, me too. I like those kind of movies with action and magic, of course with good storylines, like The Lightning Thief, Harry Porter, and Alice In Wonderland.

And we watched The Twilight Saga Eclipse today. Finally, I able to watch it in cinema that I have been waiting for. Love this movie so much. Edward and Jacob~ Who will you choose if you are Bella? I will choose... guess who? =}
I am really happy during the moment we are being together. But somehow, we cant be together for 24hours, although I am always not satisfy with the period we spend, I always want to have more time to spend with you. Have a depth breath man~ Now is the time for you to breath~ Inhale the fresh air around. This is the freedom you maybe looking for, not too close, not too far, not too stick, not too care... However, you may forgotten what is my horoscope: Piesces. I do not need fresh air to breath, I just need water. YOU are my water. In other word, if you see this post, means I am missing you. Good night my piggy~
=3 {=
muackss

Friday, July 30, 2010

好感人

我刚刚又哭了。不过不是伤心,而是看了两部很感人的Videos,禁不住流泪了。我承认我是很爱哭的女生,很容易流泪。只要有感人的画面,我就忍不住哭了。所以请多多包涵,请不要因为我爱哭而嫌弃我。因为这是我表达情绪的方式,反正我哭过就会没事了。

今天看的影片一个是关于"男生要对女朋友好点,不然后悔也来不及。"
话说一个男生常把自己为中心,嫌女友烦因为碍着他办事,而推倒了她。她选择离开跑了出去。男友随后才追去,直到目睹女友在马路上被车撞倒,而去世。他在医院里哭着,后悔不迭~看着她死去的日期和时间,责怪自己没有好好珍惜。
醒来后,发觉女友还在身旁,他呆了。看看日期和时间,他们还存在着昨天。此刻,他只想看着这张的脸和紧紧的抱着她。这段期间,他对她无微不至,开始认真的珍惜她。可惜,上天安排这场车祸必须发生在那个时刻~女生冲出了马路为了捡回掉到马路上的饰物。男生并未考虑太多,冲出马路推开女生,当天的那个时刻却变成了男生的死期。女生看着男友生前录的影视,才知道原来男生早已预料这场车祸,选择了被车撞的是自己,女生伤心痛苦。
(虽然不喜欢伤心的结局,但真的感动到哭了)其实无论是男生或女生,我相信只要你是深爱着对方,你都会希望被车撞的是自己~

另一部影视是关于一个23岁的女生,却不能发育成成年人,拥有的是一个小孩的体形和一把童声。她尽力了种种不愉快的事情,却还能鼓起勇气面对和证明自己。乐观的她遇见了她的男友,而他的男有今年24岁同样的拥有一个小孩的身躯。最感人的是,她很乐观,她相信自己会幸福的。他们的爱情,被观众们祝福着。你也可以幸福的~

T___T

感动

Thursday, July 29, 2010

今天我又哭了

走路回家途中,我真的期待着一辆车会停在家楼下。
回到家,妈妈不再。我还在期待着一个人会敲我家的门。
这些期待都没有发生。一个人吃着晚饭,吃着吃着,突然哭了。。。
反复听着 周杰伦 的 "说好的幸福呢"~ 泪不知觉的一直往下掉。。。
才知道你不见了,消失了。。。
T^T
怎么了

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

很不开心~

今天9点30上课,独自塔巴士,除了寂寞还是寂寞。到了学校才发觉,自己带不够零用钱。只剩下2零吉的我,没有跟朋友借钱,也没有因为这样找他,因为没有这个必要。从早饿到回家,就当减肥吧~朋友们都决定要去看戏,而我除了没钱,没时间,无意中好像还在期待着什么。。。我还在等着什么的。。。到最后,当然没有跟去。我到reading room 去打算打发时间,读书。那里却关了因为他们正在从新排桌椅。去到DSA,感觉人很多,但是因为自己一个人,寂寞感更为强烈~

5点时有 Business Law individual presentation。我并没有做好充分的准备,结果很烂!老师问我问题,我竟然都答不出。。。直到老师肯收手,才放我走。心想我是死定的,考试也那么差,不及格吧?

要回家时,没有utar巴士,结果一个人走了漫长的路到tarc 等metro bus。同样的,除了寂寞还是寂寞。。。终于回到家了,寂寞感消失了少许。可是当我到厕所时,却禁不住哭了。。。在学校要装若无其事,到家也不想妈妈知道,静静的不出声。。。直到我到了厕所,才可以做回我自己,尽情的流泪。泪停不下来,寂寞感也回到我身边了。。。

得不到幸福不是谁的错,是我自己的错。因为自己不够完美,不能满足对方。你有听过 萧敬腾 的 "原谅我" 吗? 对不起。我累了。。。

T^T
crying

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

要睡了

今天没有去上课~因为。。。迟到。其实也没有很迟,是来得及的,可是就不知道为什么不想去上课。

今天,我继续我停了2年没做的事情,那就是学驾车啦。恩~当时我搬迁到PJ的宿舍住一年,为了方便上学。结果放弃了考驾驶执照的任务,专注求学。一年后回来,也忙得不成人形。反而我得空时,爸爸就忙得很。难得今天大家都能够抽时间,所以就是今天了啦~今天还蛮顺利的,因为没有死火噢~哈哈!不过还是会手忙脚乱啦。希望可以赶快考到执照吧~

已经11点30分。不会晚,比起前一阵子,每晚4或5点才真真的睡。现在幸福多了~珍惜现在能早睡的日子,因为再过一阵子又要开始忙了。。。

虽然很累了,但是还是在胡思乱想噢~谁可以救救我啊?我的脑真的不受控制噢~不过还好今天哭的次数很少呢~而且还得到朋友们的关心,觉得很温暖欣慰。朋友的加油站,以后还得靠你们了啦,因为预感来了,它说我会需要你们噢~

=)
雨后的彩虹

那个女生是你吗?

女生为了谁打开手机,又为了谁熄掉手机?
同时为了谁欢笑,又为了谁哭泣?
女生的答案永远是,那个永远跟随的他


男生~~我以他为例子:
他为了一个不是永恒的她打开手机,而是一个短暂的她。一个妹妹,一个旧情人,一个追不到手的美眉,一个朋友的朋友。。。
却为了一个永恒的她而熄掉手机。目的,不让她找到一丝痕迹。
同时为了一个不是永恒的她而欢笑,却为了永恒的她愁眉苦脸。


男生女生大不同。。。
受伤的女生永远比男生来得多。
报复并不是最好的方法,把手放开才能让你更快乐。

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把手放开? 曾经放开手吗?
为了一个不再关心你的他而难过,你却依然关心着他。
为了一个不再爱你的他而哭泣,你却依然爱着他。
为了一个花心的他而伤心,你却舍不得离开他。
为了一个不值得你再爱他的人,到最后你还是回到他怀里。。。
你认为除了他,再也不会爱上别人了。

如果你是那个女生,我只能说: 你是白痴!!垃圾!!败类!!无知!!
因为男生的想法是: 下一个会更好~~

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我常常觉得这个世界是为了别人而存在的,我只是个临场演员
一个不起眼,对白少,戏份少之有少,酬劳少,却全身伤痕累累。。。
幸福的结局永远是留给主角的,让观众祝福她们。。。

试问:
一个临场演员凭什么让观众祝福呢?
凭什么让导演看上他呢?
这个世界上会有多少个刘德华呢?



(8月1日,真的要吗?认真考虑吧。。。)

T^T
粉红>我
粉蓝>他
粉紫>其他女生

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

QQ~

刚刚整理过部落格的小功能。现在看起来有比较可爱了噢~呵呵!
原本有点不高兴的,所以就搞搞它,现在看看成果心情好多了~
恩恩恩~是时候做功课啦。
加油噢青青!
o^-^o
smile

Sunday, July 11, 2010

I NEED TIME

I have just finish my online quiz around 6am. I never sleep today. I am not feeling sleepy or tired the whole night. However, still I am not fully utilize my time. What i think and what i do are different ways.

I keep wondering do I have free time to do what I want to do?
I need 3 weeks holiday to do revision on each subject.
I need a week holiday to clean my room.
I needt 1/2 week holiday to sleep for 24hours to remove my panda eyes.
I need 3/5 week holiday to watch all the latest movie especially Eclipse.
I need 3/7 week holiday to sing K with my friends.
I need 2/7 week holiday to shop for clothes.
I need 1/7 week holiday to attend my friends' convo and gethering.

I need time.
Maybe people who do not spend time wisely doesn't deserve to have time.


Talking about the Twilight, beside Twilight Saga Eclipse, I am look forward to watch 'Vampire Suck' which is a quite funny movie by using the same storyline and characters as Twilight but present in a humour way. Moreover, their actors are looked similar with Twilight characters especially Jacob.




Feeling better after watching its trailer. For sure you will be laughing too. I can't wait to watch both the movies in the cinema.

It is 8am now. Say bye to the moon and welcome the sun.
^~^
Sunshine

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

No kids allowed in cinema 2

Again, by reading the title you will know from the previous post "No kids allowed in cinema". I watched The Karate Kid on June 11 2010 with my dear, the day when the movie is released. It was an action movie with a little bit of humour.

In the middle part of the movie, it was the touching part when Jackie Chan talk about his family, I found the cinema was quite special in the sense of sound effecting. I heard a kid was crying! Wow~ "A kid is crying due to the touching scene?" Awesome!!

Q: How they do that?
A: The truth is... Another kid from other planet but not the earth is crying infront of the screen inside the cinema with unknown reasons.

What makes me angry is the kid cried for a very long period but his parent didn't stop him from crying, his parent just leave him to cry until he stopped. Well, his parent may do this at home, I definitely no comment. But not in the cinema!! Don't they know this will affects the others. What races I don't think I need to mention, you know~ Really not suggest you to bring your kids to the cinema, if you are not able to handle them-they are so active and emotional, or you can't even handle yourself. Pls~ stay at home and watch your TV1 and TV2.
Speechless
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Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Week 3

Wow~ It is just on week 3, lots of assignment have to start preparing.

Next week (Public Speaking) there will be an impromptu speech for 5min long. I am worry on the topic that I will draw on that day will not able to elaborate since I rarely read newspaper, lack of facts. The topic may too broad, and only given 3min to prepare, it definitely not enough for me! God bless me pls...

Besides, I never thought that our Business Law first assignment will need to involve a lawyer. Where to get a lawyer? How good if I have a friend who is a lawyer... It really makes me headache. Fortunately, it is a grou[ assignment, I believe we can cooperate and do well on it.

Somemore, there macro assignment+financial assignment.

The most heavest subject: Loss Model. Sounds serious and hard? It does, at least for me. There are online quiz every weeks... It carries cousework marks. Already started this week but I haven try it. It may hard cause I am not expert on it; it may easy cause you may refer note or even discuss with your friends!

I hope everything will be fine for this sem. Do well and score well.
A "kou hao" taught by Fen Fen... miss her at this moment suddenly. Hope everything is fine to her as well.
Ayotete eyote
Eyotete ute
Ute eyote
Eyotete Gambate!!
Gambate~
0('0')0

Monday, June 7, 2010

New Semester, New Lazyness

Just thinking of how tough is the course is definitely enough to stop me from stepping forward. I have some friends who give up to continue AS course and switch to other faculty such as business. Yes, it is tough but challenging. It is just depends on whether you willing to take the challenges and achieve it. Im not sure whether I can survive until the end, but i will not give up. It is tough and that's why it is few, I want to be the one in the few.

Well, I promise myself must study hard starting this sem because I got and learned from a lesson last sem, it end up with a bad result, fortunately it passed. Although I have promised myself, but what acually happen in the end will be the same. I always study last minute, this is my style. I hate myself, but it is hard to change. My self-motivate never be strong. I hope someone can force me to study, motivate me. I know I am not independent, that's why I hate myself. I know I can make it if I am hardworking, but lazy always be with me.

Lazyness killed me!
Again...it is time to sleep, pig!
z.z
lazy

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Movies movies and movies...

I have watched a lot movie for these past couple months~

I like the song 纯文艺恋爱 so much~

IRON MAN 2

IP MAN 2


IP MAN+IRON MAN=IPRON MAN 2
This is the poster that I found was quite intresting from facebook.
This shows how people spend thier time on, however it was great.

LOSERS


The Nightmare on Elm Street..
I am not going to post the poster here, cause I am scared~
It was a horror movie talks about people die in reality if they die in the nightmare itself.




Shrek 3

The Prince of Persia

Currently look forward to The Karate Kid, Toys Story 3...^^

V^^

yay

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Final is coming!!!

Friday will be my 1st test. But i seem do not have the mood to study at all. I always feel sleepy whenever i look at the note, i have no idea on what am i doing these few days.

I guess it may cause by the result i got for my Calculus. It was the worst result i ever got, not even quarter i got. I know my mum will feel disappointed when she know this, because my sis is the top student in TARC for mechanical engineering.

I hope i can pass it by scoring more than 40/60 in final. I do not know whether i can make it or not. I need something to motivate me. Please. Hopes luck will follow me always.
T.T
lazy

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Hapi birthday~

It was my 20th birthday, a memorable and unforgetable birthday.

It was quite funny when my dear was planning to give me a surprise because he is not good in keeping secrets, i guess. I knew that he will come at 12am, i knew it. Unsurprisingly, he came wif a big Secret Recipe Moist Chocolate Cake and stand infront of my door. At that moment i din't feel surprise but i know he loves me. I feel touch when he told me how was he waiting after buying the cake just to wait the clock reaches 12am. And when he sings me a birthday song, i was like want to award him by giving a kiss. I feel i am loved, took care by him. Simply immersed in happy memories. I spended my whole night with him and that's how we ended the night.


Morning, I went to classes as usual. There were friends who wished me early in the morning when I went in the class, however I din hear any wish from my classmate so I acted there was no such special day it was.

When came to last class which is Basic Writing tutorial, they wished me and said they purposely act not knowing my birthday and do not wish me in the morning. Then only i realise what was hapenning the whole day. And they gave me a gift, I like it so much^^

A bag in red. I found my gifts for this birthday are all in red =)

It wasn't finished acually~ At the end of the class, Karen told me there will be a group discussion for assignment and we have to stay back for a while. I said:"Oo.. ok ar~" Again, Karen again, she said she wants to answer Jared's call then she walked out. But she came back with a cake and my classmates sang a birthday song for me~



"Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to you~
Happy Birthday to you~
Ha~ppy Birth~day to you~"

You have no idea on how touching was I, how dramatically is this celebration... And so do I, dramatically, I was touched, and my tears keep flowing down... My eyes filled with tears of joy.



From left to right:
Upper: Han Shen, Zhao Wei, Wen Chuan, Lai Chin,
Kui Ling, Xiao Luan.
Lower: Karen, Jia Wen, ME, Ching Mun.


Thanks you guys~ You all treasure me, so do I treasure you~
And ofcourse, thanks my dear for waiting until so late just to celebrate with me.

I LOVE YOU~

=)
Hapi

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

My wishes

Another 3hour and 15min going to reach 17 March 2010, which is my 20th birthday~ Really don't want to be 20th so fast, don't want to get older and older. Em~ This year birthday i din't plan any celebration because there will be a test on thursday. But i know my best friends hope to yam cha together with me. But im so sorry that i can't make it, im selfish to spend my time to study since my Test 1, Quiz were terrible! I got 11/25 for my Linear. Terrible right? Can't believe that i got less than half.

So far, i have got a gift from one of my best friend, Miyo-- a set of red bra and T-back just 3min ago. Thank you so much! I like it!! Muackss~~ Miyo had gave me gifts for the past few years, such as roses, a puppy, "guai nin gou", and hand made card. All these are my favourite. I appreciate it so much.

As usual, there are always wishes for my birthday^^
1. I hope my family, friends are healthy and happy. No pain, no stress.
2. I hope i can get good results for all subjects so that i can get higher than 3.5 CGPA.
3. I hope i can be together with my dear forever, and we will never argue again.
4. I hope i will getting prettier and prettier.
5. I hope YOU will have the best luck as i have.

o(^-^)o
Hapi~

Monday, March 15, 2010

Thanks, my dear~

When all my friends plan to go for a movie--Alice in Wonderland 3D version on thursday, i knew it, i can't join them. However, i watched it last Saturday with my dear but it wasn't 3D version because the movie was almost sold out in everywhere. The movie was nice to watch and this time there was no kids around, we should be happy ^^ I believe it will be nicer in 3D version! But im not going to watch it again just for enjoying the 3D version, as my friend said there is not much difference.



Thank my dear, thank for everything you gave me. I have been spending you a lot of money. I really hope you can save the money for future use instead of entertainment. I LOVE YOU~

muackss~
*3
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